Know What I Mean?!?!

I was given such the privilege to meet an incredible woman of God this past weekend. I'm talking a divine meeting. God spoke so much to me through this woman as she shared her heart and vision. Her words spoke to my core and enlightened me greatly. One of the things that hit me hard was when she spoke about the "reap what you sow" method. She shared how she chose to put herself and her self-care behind the needs of others. For legit reasons, she chose the needs of her children and her widowed mother before making her scheduled health appointments. Soon after, she was hit with the difficult news that she had stage 4 breast cancer. I was shocked and saddened as she shared this with me and the other women present, but it was her next sentence that woke me up. She shared that now it was the same people that she chose to take care of before herself that was having to help her up the stairs and comfort her. In that moment I thought, "How selfish am I to not take care of m

OK, I'm gonna get straight to it. I was wondering why it doesn't really matter if people find out secrets about me these days. See, these secrets use to keep me in bondage. They use to paralyze me. I isolated myself and chose not to make a lot of close relationships in fear of what others may think of me. Thank God I don't live that way anymore. But when did the change happen? Where did my boldness and confidence come from? This is what I have come to the conclusion of: the people that I know and have confidence to have my back and support me outweighs those whom I fear may judge and hate. And this is a good place to be. It hasn't always been this way. But God has brought Mike and I to a safe place. A place where people don't judge. A place where God is truly first and people actually strive for more of Him. A family. A place where I know people would stand up and defend us if anyone tried to attack. A place where we can talk about those secrets that once help us ca